Again today I sit in this castle with nothing to do. My father says
I should go hunting, but I don't like to hunt. I don't see why people
would want to kill animals for sport. *sighs* I just wish I
could find a princess, or lovely maiden to gaze upon for hours upon a time.
Maybe one day I shall find the lady to my heart. Mother says I need
to go now, so I'll write to you again later. Good bye journal.
Today has just been another boring day. Nothing to do, no one to
see. Maybe I'll go to a movie or something, don't know yet. I know
they're are some good movies out now, but I don't have anyone to go with.
Oh well, I guess I'll go anyway. I'll write back tomorrow.
This morning I was awoken by the morning rays of the sun shinning through
my chambers window. I didn't want to get up. I felt as if I
wasn't able to sleep last night. Weird eh? Well with all the
noise and commotion about I had to get up. No one could possibly
sleep through that. After I bathed, I had some choirs to do, so I
did them. Never thought life could be so lonely. When I say
that, again I mean my longing to have a lady by my side. That seems
to be the only thing that remains on my mind throughout the day and at
night. I need to go find something to do to get my mind off of it.
Maybe I will go see a play. I've heard that Shakespeare's plays are
just wonderful. But the only thing I don't care for are the groundlings.
It's not that I hate them or anything, they're just not the best people
to be around. They never stop drooling. Hehe, you would think
they would have to shut their mouth at one point and time. But I
guess not. I'll be sitting up with the higher class people anyway,
so I guess I shouldn't be complaining so much huh? Well I wasn't
really complaining. *sighs* They have this one play, 'Romeo and Juliet'.
I know I said I wanted to get my mind off of this lady that I keep thinking
about, but, the story intrigues me. Two young lovers, finding true
love, and to the death, continuing to love.
I will have to tell you more after I see it. I can't wait.
Maybe I'll meet her there... I doubt it though. I'm never that
lucky. I'm off to the Globe. Wish me luck journal. I
will take my best horse and dress in my best attire, just in case I do
meet her, or see her. *sighs* Until another time journal, farewell.
Well I write to you again with not much to say. I went to go see
'The Nutty Professor'. Hehe, I've never laughed so hard my life.
They had this one part at the beginning where these hamsters got loose
and they were all over the place. Well, I forgot how, but one got
in this guys' pants and was flopping around in his pants leg. But
the thing is, he was having a picnic with his girlfriend. *lol*
So you have this guy, stretched out with his girlfriend, and this thing
flopping around in his pants. She was watching his pants then looks
at him with the biggest smile on her face and giggles. *lol*
She had to be thinking something bad, but who knows. I was cracking
up! Maybe I should try that some time when I get a girlfriend?
Sit down with her, put that bad boy in and let him flop around and look
to see what her reaction is. Hehe, she'll either beat the beeweegies
out of me of just giggle. I hope she just giggles, don't you?
But the movie was a blast. Hehe, there was this old granny that I
loved. Eddie Murphy playing her was awesome! She made some
of the crudest comments, but I swear, she was soooo funny. The whole
family was crud for that matter, but oh well. I guess that's all
for tonight. Good night.
Oh journal! I have something wonderful to tell you! You wont
believe what happened to me this evening. I met her journal, I met
her!! Ohh journal... I rode over to the market with my friend
Lord Daniel to buy some bread and fruit for mother. While I was doing
this I noticed that Daniel had wandered off. I figured he would be
back, so I continued on with my business. After I saddled up the
bread and fruits on my horse I was ready to go, but Lord Daniel wasn't
anywhere in sight. Needless to say I was mad at him for leaving me
behind and not telling me where to meet him at.
He's a big boy I guess. He don't need me watching after him.
The sun is starting to set, so he should be going on home anyway.
So I started back and guess who I just happen to see? Yes that's
right, the mysterious Daniel. But I noticed he wasn't alone.
He was talking to someone, but I couldn't see because he had his horse
in the way. I rode over to him and then that's when I saw her.
She was the most beautiful woman I had ever seen. She was truly a
lady. She was dressed in a beautiful white dress, clearly made of
the finest materials. Her hair, oh her hair. So long and dark,
flowing over her like the midnight sky. Only a few curls ran through
her hair, like the ripples in a lake when the wind blows. Then something
happened that I will never forget. Her and my eyes met. It
was like I was looking into the bluest sky you have ever seen through a
crystal ball. Then she smiled at me and greeted me in the warmest
respect. Oh only if you could have seen her smile. *sighs*
There is nothing like it! Her lips as red and lush as those of a
budding rose if not redder. Her face was, I can't explain, just like
she wasn't real, but a dream. You know? Ohh her smile...
I had completely forgot my manners because I was in my own little world,
with just her and me. I quickly got off my horse and bowed to her
taking her hand and kissing it lightly. "Pardon me my lady...", I
said with a crackly voice. I had to sound so foolish. I know
I had to because she giggled when I spoke. I don't care if she was
giggling at me or what, but you have to hear her giggle for yourself.
It is just so innocent. Like there's this little girl inside of this
lady who has caught my eye.
I bowed to her again and turned towards Daniel. "We really must get
going", I said to him. But I think he was just as caught up in her
as I was. But then it happened, she touched my shoulder! She
has the gentlest touch. If I had not known better, I would swear
it was a angel touching me. I turned to her and she spoke in the
softest voice, "My dear sir, your friend was helping me. He is very
kind and a true gentleman. I had asked if someone could tell me how
to say I love you in French, and he came up to me and said it. I
am very grateful to him". I acknowledged her words meeting her eyes
with mine once again. After for what seemed like hours of gazing
into those crystal blue eyes of hers I turned to get back onto my horse.
"I shall leave you two alone then", I said disappointedly. He got
to stay with her and I had to leave. Wasn't fair! I think she
could tell from my voice that I was jealous because she asked me to stay.
I said, "No no, I can't. I really must get this bread and fruit back
to mother". She smiled at me and said, "It's not even that late..."
and she stopped. "I don't even know your name, what is it", she asked.
"Matthew", I found myself saying without a pause. Then she repeated,
"It's not even that late Lord Matthew".
"I do not want to intrude on you and Daniel my lady", I said softly.
She smiled at me again and said, "No intrusion. Please get down and follow
me to my castle". "It's not far from here, only a few minute walk",
she said. I reached down for her hand saying, "Well then, ride with
me please my lady, it would be a honor." She smiled at me then took
my hand and I helped her up onto my horse. When she wrapped her arms
around my waist, I, I, I just never knew how sweet the touch of a woman
could be. She was so gentle. *sighs* I had completely
forgot about Daniel by now. The
only thing on my mind was her and the feeling of her arms around my waist.
Even when we began to ride, her hands did not tighten around my waist,
the just remained around me loose and gentle. As we rode an occasional
wind would come up and blow her hair onto my neck and in my face.
Oh journal only if you could have smelt or felt her hair. Sweeter
than anything you have ever smelt before. Sweeter than the scent
of a flower, or the smell of the morning dew in the meadows. Softer
than the finest silk, her hair was just as sweet as her touch.
We arrived at her castle gates and went through. As we entered into
the court yard I got down off of my horse, placed my hands on her sides
and helped her down. She giggled and smiled at me. She started
towards the entrance into her house and I was about to follow till Danny
stopped me. He said we really should go and get back before my parents
started to worry. I knew he was right, but I did not want to leave
her. I just wanted to stay with her the rest of the night.
Maybe even the rest of my life. I also knew he was angry with me
because I guess he felt I stole her away from him. I don't know.
But I told him ok and to wait for me one second. I ran over to where
she stood and apologized to her. "I am sorry, but we really must
head back now", I told her. She nodded and said, "If you must".
"When can I see you again?", I found myself asking. "When would you
like to?", she responded. "Tomorrow", I said. She giggled and
smiled at me, "Then tomorrow it shall be". "It was a pleasure meeting
you my lady", I said as I kissed her hand softly. "As it was mine",
she said as our eyes met again. "Tomorrow then", I said. "Yes
tomorrow", she smiled.
I went back to my horse and got back up on him and then stopped to turn
around to look at her. I yelled, "My lady, what is your name? I do
not know your name". She smiled and said just loud enough for me
to hear, "My name is Monique". I giggled and nodded my head then
turned around and rode off with Daniel with her name repeating over and
over again in my head. It wasn't me saying it, but it was her voice.
I couldn't stop thinking about her all the way back home. Danny and
I never did speak on the ride back. I think I was too caught up in
myself thinking about Monique. Even when I got home I didn't speak
to my mother or father much, just gave mother the goods and went to my
chambers to start writing to you. I really should get to bed now.
I had no clue I had written this much.
I can't wait to see her tomorrow. I hope I'm able to sleep tonight.
But truthfully, I hope I do. That way I wont only hear her name in
my head, I will see her in my dreams. I just wish I could feel her
touch again, smell the sweet scent of her hair. *sighs* Good
I write you with a little curiosity. Today on IRC, well this evening,
there was this girl asking if anyone knew how to say 'I love you' in French.
She said it was for a friend, but I kinda figured it was to impress some
guy she knew or something. I didn't know French, I was taking Spanish.
But, hehe, at the time my friend Danny was on. He was spending the
night and since he didn't have online access at his house, right when he
got over here he pushed me off.
Great friend huh? Hehe, I think he was just wanting to pick up some
girls or something, who knows. But anyway, I was laying on the bed
watching TV then all of a sudden he calls me over asking how to send a
notice to this girl. I got up to see what he was talking about and
then I saw that some girl named LadyStorm was wanting to know how to say
'I love you' in French. Danny was on his final year of French, so
he wanted to tell her. I showed him how to message her, and they
went on about their business. He typed it out, but *giggles*
she didn't know how to pronounce it. So I helped him make a wav for
her and then sent it to her. She thanked him and I went to go lay
down again because I wasn't needed anymore.
They started talking and he introduced himself, as she did to him.
Then I heard him laughing and I asked him what he was laughing about.
He said, "This girl is cool". Then without my knowledge, he starting
talking about me and they were having a blast. So I get up and sit
down beside him taking the keyboard from him and I start typing to her.
She was cool. She was getting my attention really fast. Before
I knew it I was fighting him to talk to her. *laughs* Can you
just imagine two guys fighting over this little keyboard so they can talk
to this girl they just met?
I bet she was sitting there wondering where we were while
trying to get the keyboard so we could talk. I found out that her
name was Monique and she lived in Illinois. She sent a wav of herself
saying hi. To be honest with you, the wav was very simple and short,
but for reasons unknown to me, it meant a lot. Her voice wasn't really
that of a teen aged girl, but more of a young, mature woman. I could
tell that she liked to have fun just by talking to her on the computer,
but I could tell it even more when I listened to her voice. I don't
understand the way I feel inside, or why I feel drawn to her, but I do.
She isn't like any girl I've ever known. I can't believe I've never
talked to her before. I always saw her around, but I never talked
to her really. Maybe we will start? I hope so. I really
enjoyed my time with her tonight. When she said she had to go, I
felt kinda sad. Like when you're having a blast, then something comes
up and all the fun stops. You know? Well anyway, I better get
to bed, it's 3 am. I hope I can see her again tomorrow. *laughs*
Well later today I mean. Good night journal. I think tonight
I will actually sleep well. I think tonight I have a reason to.