Again today I sit in this castle with nothing to do. My father says I should go hunting, but I don't like to hunt. I don't see why people would want to kill animals for sport. *sighs* I just wish I could find a princess, or lovely maiden to gaze upon for hours upon a time. Maybe one day I shall find the lady to my heart. Mother says I need to go now, so I'll write to you again later. Good bye journal.
Today has just been another boring day. Nothing to do, no one to see. Maybe I'll go to a movie or something, don't know yet. I know they're are some good movies out now, but I don't have anyone to go with. Oh well, I guess I'll go anyway. I'll write back tomorrow.
Lord Matthew
August 19th -
This morning I was awoken by the morning rays of the sun shinning through my chambers window. I didn't want to get up. I felt as if I wasn't able to sleep last night. Weird eh? Well with all the noise and commotion about I had to get up. No one could possibly sleep through that. After I bathed, I had some choirs to do, so I did them. Never thought life could be so lonely. When I say that, again I mean my longing to have a lady by my side. That seems to be the only thing that remains on my mind throughout the day and at night. I need to go find something to do to get my mind off of it.
Maybe I will go see a play. I've heard that Shakespeare's plays are just wonderful. But the only thing I don't care for are the groundlings. It's not that I hate them or anything, they're just not the best people to be around. They never stop drooling. Hehe, you would think they would have to shut their mouth at one point and time. But I guess not. I'll be sitting up with the higher class people anyway, so I guess I shouldn't be complaining so much huh? Well I wasn't really complaining. *sighs* They have this one play, 'Romeo and Juliet'. I know I said I wanted to get my mind off of this lady that I keep thinking about, but, the story intrigues me. Two young lovers, finding true love, and to the death, continuing to love.
I will have to tell you more after I see it. I can't wait. Maybe I'll meet her there... I doubt it though. I'm never that lucky. I'm off to the Globe. Wish me luck journal. I will take my best horse and dress in my best attire, just in case I do meet her, or see her. *sighs* Until another time journal, farewell.
Well I write to you again with not much to say. I went to go see 'The Nutty Professor'. Hehe, I've never laughed so hard my life. They had this one part at the beginning where these hamsters got loose and they were all over the place. Well, I forgot how, but one got in this guys' pants and was flopping around in his pants leg. But the thing is, he was having a picnic with his girlfriend. *lol* So you have this guy, stretched out with his girlfriend, and this thing flopping around in his pants. She was watching his pants then looks at him with the biggest smile on her face and giggles. *lol*
She had to be thinking something bad, but who knows. I was cracking up! Maybe I should try that some time when I get a girlfriend? Sit down with her, put that bad boy in and let him flop around and look to see what her reaction is. Hehe, she'll either beat the beeweegies out of me of just giggle. I hope she just giggles, don't you? But the movie was a blast. Hehe, there was this old granny that I loved. Eddie Murphy playing her was awesome! She made some of the crudest comments, but I swear, she was soooo funny. The whole family was crud for that matter, but oh well. I guess that's all for tonight. Good night.
August 20th -
Oh journal! I have something wonderful to tell you! You wont believe what happened to me this evening. I met her journal, I met her!! Ohh journal... I rode over to the market with my friend Lord Daniel to buy some bread and fruit for mother. While I was doing this I noticed that Daniel had wandered off. I figured he would be back, so I continued on with my business. After I saddled up the bread and fruits on my horse I was ready to go, but Lord Daniel wasn't anywhere in sight. Needless to say I was mad at him for leaving me behind and not telling me where to meet him at.
He's a big boy I guess. He don't need me watching after him. The sun is starting to set, so he should be going on home anyway. So I started back and guess who I just happen to see? Yes that's right, the mysterious Daniel. But I noticed he wasn't alone. He was talking to someone, but I couldn't see because he had his horse in the way. I rode over to him and then that's when I saw her. She was the most beautiful woman I had ever seen. She was truly a lady. She was dressed in a beautiful white dress, clearly made of the finest materials. Her hair, oh her hair. So long and dark, flowing over her like the midnight sky. Only a few curls ran through her hair, like the ripples in a lake when the wind blows. Then something happened that I will never forget. Her and my eyes met. It was like I was looking into the bluest sky you have ever seen through a crystal ball. Then she smiled at me and greeted me in the warmest respect. Oh only if you could have seen her smile. *sighs* There is nothing like it! Her lips as red and lush as those of a budding rose if not redder. Her face was, I can't explain, just like she wasn't real, but a dream. You know? Ohh her smile...
I had completely forgot my manners because I was in my own little world, with just her and me. I quickly got off my horse and bowed to her taking her hand and kissing it lightly. "Pardon me my lady...", I said with a crackly voice. I had to sound so foolish. I know I had to because she giggled when I spoke. I don't care if she was giggling at me or what, but you have to hear her giggle for yourself. It is just so innocent. Like there's this little girl inside of this lady who has caught my eye.
I bowed to her again and turned towards Daniel. "We really must get going", I said to him. But I think he was just as caught up in her as I was. But then it happened, she touched my shoulder! She has the gentlest touch. If I had not known better, I would swear it was a angel touching me. I turned to her and she spoke in the softest voice, "My dear sir, your friend was helping me. He is very kind and a true gentleman. I had asked if someone could tell me how to say I love you in French, and he came up to me and said it. I am very grateful to him". I acknowledged her words meeting her eyes with mine once again. After for what seemed like hours of gazing into those crystal blue eyes of hers I turned to get back onto my horse. "I shall leave you two alone then", I said disappointedly. He got to stay with her and I had to leave. Wasn't fair! I think she could tell from my voice that I was jealous because she asked me to stay. I said, "No no, I can't. I really must get this bread and fruit back to mother". She smiled at me and said, "It's not even that late..." and she stopped. "I don't even know your name, what is it", she asked. "Matthew", I found myself saying without a pause. Then she repeated, "It's not even that late Lord Matthew".
"I do not want to intrude on you and Daniel my lady", I said softly. She smiled at me again and said, "No intrusion. Please get down and follow me to my castle". "It's not far from here, only a few minute walk", she said. I reached down for her hand saying, "Well then, ride with me please my lady, it would be a honor." She smiled at me then took my hand and I helped her up onto my horse. When she wrapped her arms around my waist, I, I, I just never knew how sweet the touch of a woman could be. She was so gentle. *sighs* I had completely forgot about Daniel by now.
The
only thing on my mind was her and the feeling of her arms around my waist.
Even when we began to ride, her hands did not tighten around my waist,
the just remained around me loose and gentle. As we rode an occasional
wind would come up and blow her hair onto my neck and in my face.
Oh journal only if you could have smelt or felt her hair. Sweeter
than anything you have ever smelt before. Sweeter than the scent
of a flower, or the smell of the morning dew in the meadows. Softer
than the finest silk, her hair was just as sweet as her touch.
We arrived at her castle gates and went through. As we entered into the court yard I got down off of my horse, placed my hands on her sides and helped her down. She giggled and smiled at me. She started towards the entrance into her house and I was about to follow till Danny stopped me. He said we really should go and get back before my parents started to worry. I knew he was right, but I did not want to leave her. I just wanted to stay with her the rest of the night. Maybe even the rest of my life. I also knew he was angry with me because I guess he felt I stole her away from him. I don't know. But I told him ok and to wait for me one second. I ran over to where she stood and apologized to her. "I am sorry, but we really must head back now", I told her. She nodded and said, "If you must". "When can I see you again?", I found myself asking. "When would you like to?", she responded. "Tomorrow", I said. She giggled and smiled at me, "Then tomorrow it shall be". "It was a pleasure meeting you my lady", I said as I kissed her hand softly. "As it was mine", she said as our eyes met again. "Tomorrow then", I said. "Yes tomorrow", she smiled.
I went back to my horse and got back up on him and then stopped to turn around to look at her. I yelled, "My lady, what is your name? I do not know your name". She smiled and said just loud enough for me to hear, "My name is Monique". I giggled and nodded my head then turned around and rode off with Daniel with her name repeating over and over again in my head. It wasn't me saying it, but it was her voice. I couldn't stop thinking about her all the way back home. Danny and I never did speak on the ride back. I think I was too caught up in myself thinking about Monique. Even when I got home I didn't speak to my mother or father much, just gave mother the goods and went to my chambers to start writing to you. I really should get to bed now. I had no clue I had written this much.
I can't wait to see her tomorrow. I hope I'm able to sleep tonight. But truthfully, I hope I do. That way I wont only hear her name in my head, I will see her in my dreams. I just wish I could feel her touch again, smell the sweet scent of her hair. *sighs* Good night journal.
Tonight I write you with a little curiosity. Today on IRC, well this evening, there was this girl asking if anyone knew how to say 'I love you' in French. She said it was for a friend, but I kinda figured it was to impress some guy she knew or something. I didn't know French, I was taking Spanish. But, hehe, at the time my friend Danny was on. He was spending the night and since he didn't have online access at his house, right when he got over here he pushed me off.
Great friend huh? Hehe, I think he was just wanting to pick up some girls or something, who knows. But anyway, I was laying on the bed watching TV then all of a sudden he calls me over asking how to send a notice to this girl. I got up to see what he was talking about and then I saw that some girl named LadyStorm was wanting to know how to say 'I love you' in French. Danny was on his final year of French, so he wanted to tell her. I showed him how to message her, and they went on about their business. He typed it out, but *giggles* she didn't know how to pronounce it. So I helped him make a wav for her and then sent it to her. She thanked him and I went to go lay down again because I wasn't needed anymore.
They started talking and he introduced himself, as she did to him. Then I heard him laughing and I asked him what he was laughing about. He said, "This girl is cool". Then without my knowledge, he starting talking about me and they were having a blast. So I get up and sit down beside him taking the keyboard from him and I start typing to her. She was cool. She was getting my attention really fast.
Before
I knew it I was fighting him to talk to her. *laughs* Can you
just imagine two guys fighting over this little keyboard so they can talk
to this girl they just met?
I bet she was sitting there wondering where we were while we were trying to get the keyboard so we could talk. I found out that her name was Monique and she lived in Illinois. She sent a wav of herself saying hi. To be honest with you, the wav was very simple and short, but for reasons unknown to me, it meant a lot. Her voice wasn't really that of a teen aged girl, but more of a young, mature woman. I could tell that she liked to have fun just by talking to her on the computer, but I could tell it even more when I listened to her voice. I don't understand the way I feel inside, or why I feel drawn to her, but I do.
She isn't like any girl I've ever known. I can't believe I've never talked to her before. I always saw her around, but I never talked to her really. Maybe we will start? I hope so. I really enjoyed my time with her tonight. When she said she had to go, I felt kinda sad. Like when you're having a blast, then something comes up and all the fun stops. You know? Well anyway, I better get to bed, it's 3 am. I hope I can see her again tomorrow. *laughs* Well later today I mean. Good night journal. I think tonight I will actually sleep well. I think tonight I have a reason to.
Sincerely,
Lord Matthew
